I just finished watching the movie “My Mini Black Dress.”

The story is about friendship. How four girls in their mid-twenties encounter a lot of problems, problems that we commonly encounter during our twenties. And how they had kept their friendship despite of all their differences.

And I suddenly thought about my friends.

My high school friends, my girl friends.

I could still communicate with some, but we’ve all changed.

We all went to different universities during college.

And now, we’re all trying to walk the different walks in life.

But right now, I’m missing them and I’m teary eyed. :’)

I miss them terribly.

Now I understand how important communication is. We didn’t have problems like the ones in the movie to lose the friendship.

We simply stopped communicating. Maybe because we all found new friends in college.

That’s life

But I wish we could all have another road trip or tour like we always used to do when we’re in high school.

I watched “Daddy Long Legs” again. The korean version. I feel so inlove whenever I watch that movie

.

Is it because – I was never inlove before? Or is it because I am thrilled on how a man loves a woman?

I do sometimes claim that I had been inlove before, but… I am not really sure myself. And I cannot call it love or being inlove because the feeling isn’t mutual.

I do resent the idea and my feeling of waiting for love, for I feel it is corny. But am I really waiting for love?

Honestly, I hate to admit, but, I, too, dream of being inlove. I want to feel compassion and love for someone. I want to know how being inlove feels. They say you don’t choose who you fall inlove with. Is that possible?

I often hear, when you’re inlove, you will be able to feel all kinds of emotion. But I do think that – that is a crazy idea. I had felt all kinds of emotion a man is capable of feeling. Am I still missing something?

I hate to admit, but, I am truly afraid of being inlove. I feel that I won’t be able to express my emotion and compassion to someone I am not even related to. How can you trust someone you don’t even know?

I have seen people lying to their lovers. I have seen those who are so obsessed and crazy about love. I have seen how they acted and looked so stupid just for that little thing called love. It’s uncanny!!!!

I am afraid….that love can ruin my aspirations in life. I am so scared that it can ruin me.

But, somehow, deep down inside, I want to experience true love. I think I had a chance with love, but I blew it. I do sometimes regret my decision of not acknowledging it, but why do I have to start LOVE when I have to end it anyway.

Maybe it isn’t my time to be inlove yet.

That is one of my dreams.

I really.. really.. wanted to participate in Charity organizations.

I’ve been dreaming of having my own Charity Organization since High School.

A charity that will help the Out of School Youth in the Philippines.

I believe in the POWER of EDUCATION over POVERTY.

So, I will do good in my career – to make this dream come true..

Today is my 10th day of fruit diet.

But I still eat fish – but only once a week.

I also eat bread – but only 1 to 2 loaves of bread.

No RICE. More FRUITS!

What I had noticed is that – I haven’t eaten junk foods since I started this diet. Because I didn’t like the taste. I got used to the taste of FRESH FRUITS. Isn’t that amazing???!

I feel very light and active since my diet.

My goal is to maintain this diet for a month

This is my breakfast.

I made it last night.

I enjoy making my food -for the 1st time ever!!!

This morning I have cucumber, steamed sweet potato, steamed tomato, jicama, and orange.

I’ll keep you posted on this diet

“Cry, don’t keep it all inside.”

-Blue October

Here is a screenshot of Paulo Coelho’s BLOG

which I visit every single day.

Click the picture below to enter Paulo’s BLOG

ENJOY!!!!!!

“TOUCH IS A VERY POWERFUL MESSAGE.”

“Touch is very HONEST.”

“People know immediately when you touch them whether you care about them, or whether you are just trying to find a new way to manipulate them.”

The SIMPLE RULE about TOUCHING:

“When you touch, don’t take.”

-touch people when you are giving them something – reassurance, support, encouragement.

-refrain from touching until you know them and they know that you are interested in their success – that you are clearly on their side.

*From the book “ONE MINUTE MANAGER”

comforting touch

I had experienced the power of touch. I must say, it is really really powerful and comforting.

Here is the story:

I had a fight with my cousin, and we weren’t talking for about a month or more. That’s me, when I get so mad.

Then, our family got really worried about us, so they asked my uncle to talk to both of us, just so to fix what seems to be the problem,  to clean the air between me and my dear cousin.

So, we finally talked, said our apologies.

But somehow, I still felt awkward and aloof around her, although everything is really OK.

One of my aunt saw this awkwardness between us, and she told me to give my cousin a LITTLE PAT ON THE SHOULDER to assure her that everything is OK between us.

I didn’t actually gave her a pat on the shoulder, i just touched her shoulder, and when she looked at me, i gave her a simple and a shy smile.

That simple touch was so powerful.

After that touch, everything went back to normal.

It felt so gooooooooood.

I’m so weird I know. Some of you may know that i love sitting and reading and just locking myself up in my small cabinet. Why?! Because it just feels so comforting. Weird! I know!

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling uncomfortable and all curled up inside my cabinet.

I tried remembering what I was doing there. And all I remember is going inside my room to change because we’re going out. Haha!

I had a MIGRAINE attack last night – that’s why I just fell, and didn’t realize I slept inside my cabinet!

I keep laughing just by thinking about it! HAHA!

December 8, 2009

I AM, RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT,

FIGHTING TEARS BACK FROM MY TEAR DUCT.

:’(

“DON’T FLOW” - I told my tears.

“BECAUSE IF YOU DO,

WE WILL BOTH CRY IN VAIN.

YOU DON’T WANT THAT,

DO YOU?”

♥ ♥ ♥

I am going through my old journal.

and I am amaze (I think it is absurd and funny actually!) how I talk to myself.

♥ ♥ ♥

“THE MOST IMPORTANT CONVERSATION

YOU’LL HAVE IS

THE ONE YOU’LL HAVE TO YOURSELF”

–> I forgot who quoted this. I f you know, please write it in the comment box below