My Endless Rambling♥

I watched “Daddy Long Legs” again. The korean version. I feel so inlove whenever I watch that movie

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Is it because – I was never inlove before? Or is it because I am thrilled on how a man loves a woman?

I do sometimes claim that I had been inlove before, but… I am not really sure myself. And I cannot call it love or being inlove because the feeling isn’t mutual.

I do resent the idea and my feeling of waiting for love, for I feel it is corny. But am I really waiting for love?

Honestly, I hate to admit, but, I, too, dream of being inlove. I want to feel compassion and love for someone. I want to know how being inlove feels. They say you don’t choose who you fall inlove with. Is that possible?

I often hear, when you’re inlove, you will be able to feel all kinds of emotion. But I do think that – that is a crazy idea. I had felt all kinds of emotion a man is capable of feeling. Am I still missing something?

I hate to admit, but, I am truly afraid of being inlove. I feel that I won’t be able to express my emotion and compassion to someone I am not even related to. How can you trust someone you don’t even know?

I have seen people lying to their lovers. I have seen those who are so obsessed and crazy about love. I have seen how they acted and looked so stupid just for that little thing called love. It’s uncanny!!!!

I am afraid….that love can ruin my aspirations in life. I am so scared that it can ruin me.

But, somehow, deep down inside, I want to experience true love. I think I had a chance with love, but I blew it. I do sometimes regret my decision of not acknowledging it, but why do I have to start LOVE when I have to end it anyway.

Maybe it isn’t my time to be inlove yet.